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clinicals - day 2 [20 Sep 2007|10:18pm]
[ mood | drained ]

today was about to be realllllly super interesting but it turned out to be super slow instead. my patient was scheduled for an mri before a brain biopsy today and i went with her to get the mri, and saw the huge tumor. eeh! i was supposed to go with her to surgery and watch them slicing and dicing at her brain!! i was going to get changed and scrubbed in and everything and the stupid surgical nurse stopped me and was telling me that there were already spc students going in to watch. i pitched a fight bc she was MY patient. gosh there's such competition for these clinical spots it's crazy!! anyways, she went to surgery and i was left with no patient. so i just kinda wandered around and watched an ekg and watched someone having their port suctioned out and had to gown up to go into a mrsa room and bathe the tiniest woman eveeer. and now i'm super tired bc i didn't take a nap when i got home. these 4:00 mornings are KILLLLER. And I have a test tomorrow, wonderful. MUST.. STOP.. PROCRASTINATING!!

that's it [10 Jun 2007|10:49pm]
[ mood | full ]

i've never been on a diet before, but i'm starting one as soon as i figure out what one eats when one is dieting.


seriously!!! [07 Jun 2007|08:13pm]
is it just me or is it incredibly obnoxious how everyone is getting engaged/married right now? i know everyone around me is "at that age," but i really feel like alot of people are getting married just because everyone else is. i'm almost to the point where i don't want to have a wedding [when my time comes] for the sole purpose of not having to go to another one!! most of these people haven't even been in their relationship that long. do you really think you know each other well enough to make such a commitment. i've been with david for three years and i still can't fathom the idea of marrying him yet. i was talking to my sister about this today and then honestly an hour later, my grandmother calls with news that a cousin is engaged. congrats. can't wait for your wedding and all the money that will slip out of my wallet as a result. it's not even like i'm jealous, i have no desire to get married anytime soon. i'm waiting. til everyone is settled in their careers with more money in their pockets and then i'll shove a fancy wedding down their throats and maybe even mandate a dress code. like everyone must wear black and yellow.. so then they can all go shopping. and the cheapest thing on my registry will probably be $700. yes. sounds perfect.

i t u n e s [03 Sep 2006|04:02pm]
How many songs: 990

Sort by song title:
-First Song:  !@*$%# by fischerspooner   [i don't know why i can't type that without it turning into a hyperlink. ignore that.]
-Last Song: zombie by the cranberries

Sort by time:
-Shortest Song: dig your grave by modest mouse [0:12]
-Longest Song: quiet by rachael yamagata [9:22]

Sort by album:
-First Song: sweetness by fischerspooner [#1
-Last Song: staring at the sun by tv on the radio [young liars]

Top Seven Most Played Songs:
1. better together - jack johnson [44]
2. sugar, we're going down - fall out boy [41] 
3. the long way home - norah jones [41]
4. banana pancakes - jack johnson [39]
5. seven years - norah jones [39] 
6. staple it together - jack johnson [38] 
7. constellations - jack johnson [38]

First song that comes up on Shuffle: length of love by interpol 

Search ....
"sex", how many songs come up?: 17
"love", how many songs come up?: 59
"you", how many songs come up?: 121 

[03 Aug 2006|12:53pm]
so sleepy. i just did some crazy long cardio at the gym. i'm pooped. roscoe just wants to play and i just want to sleep. [bc he was sleeping when i was playing!] david took a cute picture of me and the dog last night. i'll share maybe sometime later. if i remember.

i've been bad about looking for a job up here. i've found a gym though!! it's not that i've been doing nothing, because somehow i've been busy allll day, every day. tomorrow we're driving down to tampa so i can see my fam and david can go fishing with the boys as a sort of "bachelor" party for one of his friends.

i need to paint my nails. how exciting. i also need to eat lunch, take a shower, pack for the weekend, and go run some more errands/explore my new surroundings. so goodbye.

[21 Jul 2006|12:21am]
[ mood | nervous ]

i'm scared. i'm sad. i'm all kinds of emotions related to leaving tampa. none really about going to atlanta. i mean, i'm obviously subconsciously excited or i wouldn't be going in the first place. listen people. after 2 years of this long distance relationship, it's time we jump right in and find out the real-ness of what we got. hopefully it's all good things [okay, with some realistic, but minimal bad things]. i really want this to work!!! but i don't want to leave my mommy to do it!

god i'm such a baby and a dork. but really. especially in these last 7 months i've been home from gainesville. my mom and i have really bonded. she's like.. my best and basically my only friend in tampa. shannon's so wrapped up in her high school romance. i'm really gonna miss going to the gym with my mom every day and cooking dinner with her and going shopping with her and to the movies and playing scrabble [and getting my ass kicked because i am an awful strategist]. etc. etc. i've gotta move out some time, don't i?

and in case anyone needed to know, loreal sublime bronze self tanning gel is AWESOME! I forgot I put it on this afternoon and when I just got home 20 minutes ago, I didn't recognize my legs because they were so stinkin tan. I mean, this isn't a revelation to me, I've been using this stuff for months. I just wanted to tell any of you pale people desperate for a tan that you have options besides sitting in the sun for hours. who has hours anyways?! if i did, i would so spend them in the sun!


yes, it's true! [17 Jul 2006|02:52pm]
10 more days and I'll be in Georgia for the most indefinite amounts of time. I haaaaate not knowing what's to come. Especially when it comes to the timing of things. I am just not a spontaneous person. It really makes me anxious.

This week stinks. 4 finals, and oh god, I forgot I have a quiz tomorrow night too. Once these classes are done, I will feel such relief, I just know it. Even though there's still alot of business I need to take care of and things to do, like going to the beach before I move [seemingly] millions of miles away from a beach. yes, okay there are beautiful lakes and mountains and creeks in ga, but no sand and poopy seagulls and waves to play in with your sister. Oh well. That will just make the times I do get to the beach that much better. Last summer Shannon and I spent with our cousins and aunts and uncles and grandma but no immediate family besides each other. It was wonderful. We were like little girls. We clung to each other, even though our family is fun, there's nothing like a sister. There was this one day we spent rolling aruond in the waves for hourss and we were practically lost at another beach in the end. We were sunburned and prune-y and sick from laughing so much. It was such innocent fun. The kind you have when you're 6 and have no agenda but to have fun. Yeah best memory ever.

I also want to go see the MOSI bodies exhibit one more time now that I've finished Anatomy. I want to be able to see it in a new light now that I've learned all this stuff and it's fresh in my mind. Seriously, the coolest exhibit ever.

This endless studying is making me restless. I want to go waste another afternoon in the pool! :(

Shannon is going snorkeling in the keys this weekend for class. JEALOUS! That was the family vacation we were going to take - even that exact weekend - but then it was cancelled because she's going for school. ANNOYING! Instead, I'm spending my weekend digging through my family's storage room, organized tetris-style, for stuff that's mine and things I want to take. Great. Goodbye.

[25 Apr 2006|03:28pm]
missy is so cute!! will you just look at this!!!?

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[24 Apr 2006|05:19pm]
i am considering doing a somersault out of this chair and onto the floor where i will remain for a good 20 minutes at least. i'm sick of sitting at the computer!!! it's like allll i do. this is the part where david would chime in: "you shoulda gotten a laptop and not a desktop!" i know i know!! but do you know how much more i would've had to pay for a laptop with the same insides as this?? like alot more okay!?

and these trips to gainesville.. if only my doctor would just take appointments on fridays, do you knooooooooooow how much less stressed i'd be if that were the case?! because if you don't, i'm here to tell you: ALOT!!!

while i'm griping, i will add that i am having cramps and this is annoying because a) i don't usually get cramps, b) my period was a week ago - it's too late to be menstrual and too early to be ovulational. AAAHHH!!! I think I'm delusional.

oh great [19 Apr 2006|12:17am]
[ mood | weird ]

I was just on the phone with David and he told me not to worry because he's sure I'll do fine on my test (even though I've only studied half the material so far!!) because I've done so well on my last two. And then a LIGHTBULB flashed: I can drop my lowest exam. So hello.. stop worrying about studying, get some rest, regroup, take the test and don't worry!! Yes, I would've loved to remember that I can drop an exam sooner so that I could've gotten some other work done - which I'm turning in late due to lack of time - but the semester's over in 2 weeks so big woop. I've got an A in all of my classes right now so whatever. I don't care anymore. It's like this feeling of senioritis is rushing over me, except it's not senioritis, it's more like burntoutitis.

Other [sarcastic tone] great news: My old boss who was going to write my letters of rec for nursing school was just asked to resign. David says he'll write me a letter and noone will ever have to know, but his company is in GA and I've been in school for the last 20 consecutive years of my life in FLORIDA. So I'm not sure that's going to be a possibility. As tired as I am, it's moments like right now I want to go to the gym and kill myself with cardio. Seriously, I got a second wind just thinking about that.

burnt out [18 Apr 2006|11:02pm]
[ mood | exhausted ]

um. this semester has reached the point of ridiculousness. i am so TIRED, it has literally brought me to tears several times. david came this weekend, and although we had fun, i kind of wish he hadn't just because i could've gotten alot more done without him here. ugh. i still did about 12 hours of hw on saturday while he went diving with friends. i need money so bad, but there's no time to work (or even volunteer for the experience i should be getting for nursing) and do well in classes, and there isn't really the option of spacing my classes out a little more because i need to get into a nursing program asap if i ever want to make something happen with my life!! and plus, finishing prereqs quickly means i move to ga sooner.

i have a huge test tomorrow, and what sucks is i've reached that point where i can't study anymore. my brain will not focus. i'be been trying to divert my attention to other things, but every time i go back to my notes.. my brain shuts down again. i feel like i've been doing hw from 8 am to midnight every day for the last week and i just want a break. my break is coming when i go to gainesville thursday, although, i actually wish i wasn't going this weekend bc i literally don't have time. but i have a couple appointments and i've already rescheduled one of them, so i don't really want to do that again.

i think i just need a break from school for once in my life. it's coming in august for an indefinite amount of time, but i really don't want to wait.

[03 Apr 2006|11:53pm]


[03 Apr 2006|11:53pm]
GOOOOOOOOOOOOO Gators!!! I don't really even enjoy basketball.. so much running around, but I am proud of my little Gators no matter what shape or size! WOO! So proud! SO PROUD!!

<marquee>It's great to be a Florida Gator!!!!!</marquee>

[26 Mar 2006|11:09pm]

Go to your music player of choice and put it on shuffle.
Say the following questions aloud, and press play.
Use the song title as the answer to the question.

How does the world see me?
Art Star

Will I have a happy life?:
Discotraxx     -wtfdoesthismean

What do my friends really think of me?:
The remedy

Do people secretly lust after me?:
killing   -hmm

How can I make myself happy?
ain't so lonely

What Should I do with my Life?:
fuck authority

Will I ever have children?:
til kingdon come

What is some good advice for me?:
we never change

How will I be remembered?
glamour girl

What is my signature dancing song?:
i'll just fall            -except probably not

What do I think my current theme song is?:
baby baby

What does everyone else think my current theme song is?

What song will play at my funeral?:
everywhere to me

What type of men/women do I like?:
dearly beloved

What is my day going to be like?:
freak-a-leak      -hah

i feel so lonely [26 Mar 2006|12:54am]

and lost.

[27 Feb 2006|11:55pm]
[ mood | quixotic ]

i am desparate for a change in my life. mostly just for a true friend for once in my life. someone who isn't going to stab me in the back. i mean, okay, i have several good friends who all still live in gv, and my boyfriend who is my best friend everrr. but it would seriously be nice to have a girlfriend too because guys are just useless for some things. will she please just show up at my front door? please?

ugh [26 Jan 2006|08:10pm]
[ mood | frustrated ]

There is something out there for everyone. Finding it is the tricky part. And the tricky part is different for everyone.

[14 Jan 2006|11:09pm]

i just remembered i need to take the gre sometime in 2006. does anyone know when the format changes or if it already has?

i'm going to see david next thursday. i'll be back the following monday. then 2 wednesdays after that (8 days later), i'm flying back for 5 more days because the rest of febuary has no flights that work for me. and then i probably won't see him til spring break. i'd like to just move there tomorrow ok?

i'm tired. goodnight.

[03 Jan 2006|12:56pm]
I don't really have time to write in here. I've been SOO busy lately and am still only half unpacked from moving back from Gainesville. Boxes everywhere in my room.

Last Tuesday I drove down to Marco Island and stayed at David's all week. We went fishing and I actually caught some on my own! We went to a fancy dinner in Naples one night and hung out with his friends the others. It was fun. Then Saturday night, we drove up to Anna Maria to stay at his friends house. We rode the boat out to a deserted island where there was a campfire and fun. There were 12 of us. All night we were subjected to the unrhythmic sounds of some amateur hippies playing the drums and chanting. When it was time to leave, everyone was drunk beyond belief and pretty high as well.. The fog had rolled in and tide was low so going the 2 miles to get home took us about 2 hours since we couldn't see more than 20 feet ahead and the gps was broken. And as if that wasn't bad enough, one of David's friends decided to punch him and they both almost flipped the boat over. That was awesome! WAAAY too much testosterone that night. I broke several nails trying to pull them off each other.

David stayed here Sunday night and now he's gone. :( In 2 weeks, I'm flying up there, but just for a long weekend bc I'm taking classes this semester. Sucks.

I have to go run a million more errands right now before dinner with the girls later. Goodbye.

i smell like bbq [10 Dec 2005|11:45pm]
[ mood | pensive ]

it's almost over!!! i started tearing up in the car on the way home from dinner with the girls. it's not like i'm never gonna see them or have fun with them again, but things will definitely change. hopefully i don't get lonely in tampa. summer has plans to reunite all of the academy girls. that could be fun. and then my mom and her friend at work have plans to set up me and the other lady's daughter so we can be friends. her daughter is sort of in the same boat.. and funny thing is, her boyfriend is moving to ga in january. what's with these boys? hopefully, i'll find a job and/or a volunteering position at some hospital. it would be ideal if i could find a paid job in the medical industry.

and tampa is not too far away that i can't come back here every other weekend if i'm desperate for friends and fun.

i just can't stop thinking about moving to ga in august. i wish it were happening NOW, but i don't want to pay for out of state tuition.. so.. yeah. i was talking to shannon tonite about how i feel like a proposal might be happening soon. but at the same time, i'm not sure if i'm thinking that because everyone else is or if it's really going to happen. i know david's friends and family have been asking him "when's the wedding," etc.. and i know my family has been asking since this summer (not my tampa family.. but the rest of them) and then of course, my friends all asking about engagement rings and what kind of wedding i'd want. and i don't even know if they're all wondering specifically about me or if just wedding thoughts are in the air because it's the end of school.. and it seems like it's more of the latter. it's sooo common for people to get married right after they graduate. and i know alot of people who have gotten engaged recently. you kind of can't help but think about it. but that doesn't mean that it's necessarily the time for me and david yet.. you know? although, an engagement really couldn't hurt anything. if anything, i think it just solidifies your commitment to each other. and i mean, we could be engaged for 3 years, no problem. in fact, i'd almost prefer to be. just to make sure. i don't want any surprises coming up after we're married and it's too late to turn back (easily). plus, i really don't want to get divorced, ever!

i'm really nervous about meeting his family. i don't know why. i've never had a problem with a boyfriends family not loving me. or vice versa. but this summer, when i met his mom, i planned my outfit probably weeks in advance. i don't know why. i just feel like that first impression is huge. and i know appearance isn't everything. and i know it probably doesn't matter what i wear, but it's still important to me. my stomach was in knots the whole 4 hour drive to nc this summer to his mom's cabin. so stupid really. but at least i've already met her and she loves me. i think the mom is probably the most important one to win over! but i still have to meet his dad, grandparents, sister, aunt, cousins, and all his high school buddies. aaah! i need to not stress. STOP STRESSING!

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